A Virgin

A Virgin

By Meow Scratch

Kate is a boring, dull girl and hasn't had any experiences. She is good in her studies and has very strict parents. Her friends normally tease her about being so up-tight and not having the experiences they had, but this time it really has got to her.

Oh my god. They said it again. I swear to god, one day I'll be laughing in there faces when there pregnant at 17. I mean, what's so bad about being a virgin at six-teen? Nothing. Just because I don't have sex as soon as I'm aloud to doesn't mean I’m not ever going to. But honestly, it's such an uncomfortable topic 'sex'. Maybe I'm a little dull and boring but that doesn't mean I'm not going to do it! Actually, maybe it does. Maybe I'm just never going to lighten up to the different experiences. Oh, I don't know!

It's just they keep bothering me about all this crap. Hey, I have an idea! What if I say, that I've had sex already. Sure it's not true and it might not work but it's worth a try. They're so stupid they won't even realise. Oh wait, but what if they did. What if they laugh and rub it in even more. That will be worse. But how could that happen? Maybe if they ask how to describe my 'first time' It's so stupid though, why do I have to have sex at 16? Isn't it against the law or something!? Oh wait, it isn't.

But I bet when I'm 21, and I can live my life how I choose to. They will be stuck in there homes looking after there children whilst I'm out there seeing the world! I would have all the freedom in the world. I could visit places like: Paris, New York, Venice, Tokyo! All these wonderful dreams; they will come true. But say if I got pregnant...

Yeah, I guess I could have an abortion. But what if I feel guilty inside and don't have an abortion (I mean I'm like that) and then. And then, and then I'll have kids. They can be cute, but they can also be a pain. I wonder what it's like- like to have a family. But will I have a husband? Oh no, will I be a single mom. I guess it's not too bad unless I have like 4 kids! Oh my, that would be a disaster!

Calm down Kate, it's just those stupid girls having a go at you. You can handle it. Oh but I'm such a looser, I'm even talking to my self. Maybe I will have to do it after all. No! Shut up! I will not have sex at six-teen! Not even if it's safe! Don't let them get to you, Kate! You are a mature woman, too young for sex. That's right! I'm only six-teen so why should I even bother. If they want to ruin there lives with being pregnant at 17 let them!

To be honest though, I really wonder what it feels like. I wonder what the feeling is of your first time?